Me...

Me,my Best cuzins & my best friends......

My fwenZzz.................clzz of 2008 of SMPIHM!!

What i hate...what i dont like..

Me, at i hte? well lets see...i hate BACKSTABERS, LIARS, PALYBOYS (So anti) & HEART BREAKERS...... huhu you see i really2 love making friends...but d thing is when u get too close to them sometimes they can hurt you...,i hate it when ppl talk behind my back..., i hate been played...

What i dont like..annoying ppl...mostly when im moody.. n i dont like being tease about the way i live my life n how i do it.....teasing me aint going to do any gud...


damn...im so vordd~

My Life???

my life.... well i dont know how 2 put in one word........ so here goes...i feel useless,helpless,fithless..hopeless & unwanted...i feel scared most of the tyme....n i hide a lot of things..... my life i a complete lie....eventhough i smile...my smile hide a thousand tears....which goes on every night...i told ppl im ok,im great,im happy as i ever be...but d ruth is my heart is crushing...im crushing n burning 2 the ground...at night...all i can think of is my death...thats where i got the nick nme "ladydeath"..hehe :) nway i bring misery 2 all d ppl i evr care n love about..fmly,fwens..all..they juz happen without my notice....n i felt d guilt all the tyme....all i wanted was 2 b love n care about...huhu

HEART BROKEN MUCH!!

My heart is damn broken~ itz killing me 2 pick it up n fixing it... after been broken & broken again~...im so tired... juz wish sum1 out thare would repect me,respect my love....ryte not my hope&faith is fadeing away.. yea ...u may say "hey thares a lot of guys out thare" but now ask u bck...r oll of d guys worth it...even thouhg u hve 2 repet over n over again,get heart broken?? i mean yea if u heart gets broken 4 once o twisc..u can say itz ok....but how about 11 times???? itsnt than enougfth?? i dont know 4 u guys out thare...but 4 me thats more than enougfth... 3 boyzzz,juz 3 boys can do diz much damage.... Haziq,N*** & G***... huhu i will nvr forget them.... mostly G***...he has been in my life for about 4 years now... he has walk out n walk in out of my life so many timesss~ that he leves scars everytime he does dat... my heart now is bleeding...everytime i tried 2 move onn...his stu*id face shows up n pull me back....u know how that hurts??? well it hurts a lot~ i cried almost everynight 4 himm...even though i know he dosent give a damn about me....cuz he has a gf tht he loves a lot..n his happyy~ it breaks my heart even more 2 notice that...that he is not coming back...:( huhu~ ;'( though his over thare all happy n not even 4 a second i ran into his mind...im alwys misrble,still i love him...miss him n even hve hope 4 him 2 come back ;'( now......all i can is im still trying 2 move on...but still u know wht ryte...k thats ol 4 2day...vye.